Wednesday, September 28, 2005
I'm waiting for the moment where you drag Mother into the picture, you older and supposedly more matured pussy. Maybe Mother should have squeezed a cat out of her vagina instead of either one of us.
I'm beginning to get sick and tired of the holidays really fast. If i'm not engulfed in madness with my mum, it's with my brother. Papa, put on your boxing gloves. We might be hitting it off in the boxing ring next.
Yeah i'm so detrimental to my family. I don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't do drugs, i'm still a virgin, yet everyone in this family seems to always treat me like a foreign object that got shove up their asses. Yeah i'm in the wrong always.
Happy fucking holidays arman, happy fucking holidays.
he flared his nostrils rapidly [6:38 PM]
Thursday, September 22, 2005
time to get right
// kiley dean - make me a song
Ever since the D'Fault Party Night at Halo Bar, which marked Arman Shah's monumental clubbing session debut [yes, i am the epitome of SAD], my hairy balls have been itching to hit the dance floor once again. I might be exaggerating, but nothing comes across as parallel to that natural high you experience from simply losing it and vibing to the rhythm of your soul. Sounds nauseatingly cheesy but hell, it's true. With all that being said, i'm just going to look fabulous and make the best out of tonight. Well of course my eyeballs will be contanstly darting towards the watch. Arman-rella still has a curfew which makes his transformation into a wild party animal a fall-flat-on-the-face failure. LOL!
Anyways, before hitting Home Club, i'll be hitting the cinema for the second time this week. Yes...these holidays are meant for vengeance! [melancholic violin music starts playing] Mass Comm robbed me of my social life. It robbed me of everything and anything that remotely mattered and brought smiles of genuine happiness to my face. And without a doubt, this is inclusive of going to the cinema to catch fantabulous MOVIES! Seriously, i'm sick and tired of being in that minute group of losers who only manage to find the time from a hectic schooling schedule to catch a movie AFTER the whole freaking world caught it and raved about it. THIS SHIT NO MORE! SO...doesn't the fact that i'll be watching "4 Brothers" for free makes vengeance that much sweeter? Muahahaha!
And it is official.
The Salvation Army...
is an awesome place...
to shop!
Hot brown pants for $4.50 baby! :)
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [2:19 PM]
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
how long can he stay in The Gloom?
// bobby valentino - tell me
At a tender age of 17, i can quite confidently proclaim that I...know myself. Fine, it is oxymoronic of me to pair the term "quite" and "confidently" together in a sentence and attempt to convey a strong sense of conviction. For the sake of throwing in some substantive statistics, I make that statement with a confidence level of 8 [10 being highest].
Yes, I do not deny that it is quite a bold statement to make. But seriously, i have reached that age where i possess enough maturity to look back, reflect, and intellectually understand where i came from, who i was, the evolution my character underwent, who i am now and the kind of person i am still trying to be. I am still a young boy without a doubt, armed with nothing more than a naive mind and a spirit struggling to remain free in a fucked up world where reality is just as fucked up. But i have digested and internalised the truth that i am shedding those layers of innocence and insecurity. To put it in a nutshell, this baby boy is all grown up.
And at one defining moment in my evolution as a person, victim-of-repression just did NOT sound cool anymore. LOL. Yes, it is revoltingly pretentious, simply cringe-worthy and just, just nauseating. Seriously, it's best that we leave the "funkylicious and sadistic-sounding" blog urls to the younger and the more hopeless. Thus, i have justified the change in a blogspot address. It was inspired, or rather, a total rip-off, of Craig David's sophomore record.
Well aniways, 4 guys and a girl [the amazing me, together with Yihan, Syed Arafat, Fadli and the "damned" Prem] caught Night Watch yesterday. It's basically a movie about Russian vampires and a group of Others who ensure that either side follows the rules and regulations of The Truce. The violence was artistic and taken to a very humanised level. Just think...Quentin Tarantino. I will not divulge anymore and ruin that sweet anticipation of not knowing. However, i must say that the ending was kinda weak. Then i learnt from Yihan that it was a trilogy. Muahahaha! Now i can't wait for the next 2 installments. Because despite its tiny little flaws, it IS a fucking cool russian movie about vampires. Hahahaha. Awesome.
And i forgot to mention...i bought a pair of seriously hot slip-on shoes too. Even more awesome. Hurhur.
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [11:57 AM]
Saturday, September 17, 2005
FREEDOM :)
// the afters - beautiful love
You guys! You guys! Can you believe it??! Can you seriously freaking believe it??! We are finally free you guys! *Cackles like a monkey gone mad with tears of purest joy streaming down from his pretty eyes*
HAHAHA-HEHEHE-HIHIHI-HOHOHO-HUHUHU!
NO i'm not producing disturbing orgasmic noises!
That was simply a remark of pure joy!
This hols, i'll most probably be working. I'll then be freaking loaded and i'll spend the cash on myself like there is no tomorrow. But of course i'll donate a portion of it because my heart is beautiful like the ocean and the star-filled sky. I'll go out regularly with all my beautifool beautifool buddies. I'll read alot of books. I'll buy alot of albums and smile manically to myself as i stuff the earphones down each ear and get lost in my own little world of beautiful music. I'll finally go to all the hip-hop events Beats Society organises and be more involved in the scene. I'll just BE HAPPY! I am so happy right now you can almost see a blinding ray of light penetrating through my chest from my heart, swallowing everything and everyone and we shall all be happy!
OH FREAK OF NATURE I AM JUST SO HAPPY!
Yes, school was that hard, mentally and physically.
But September has ended for us and i'm finally awake now :)
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [8:27 PM]
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
when shit gets rough
// faith evans - again
Fadli da Strippa' did something purely magical to my old school yet highly-reliable of an IBM laptop. And now, every single thing about it, from its super slick appearance to its internal system configuration, simply rocks my pair of folded-down-to-create-the-illusion-of-ankleish-socks socks. Thanks yo.
The commissues paper was not exactly what i may call a breeze, but it was decent enough. The pornography section was relatively easy since i did took the pain of memorising every freaking theory and all those findings from the various scientific studies. Yes, the porn research paper by 888 was my beacon of guiding light.
The media ethics section was, for the lack of a better word, fine. I shall share no more than that as I KNOW that friends will shriek and be very tempted to stranggle me upon learning that i, Arman Shah, left 2 questions unanswered due to time constraint. Oops, did i intentionally-accidentally divulge??! Arman you are so lame you might as well finger a toad's pussy.
I ABHORRED the Newswriting peer evaluation consultation. It left me in disturbed silence, questioning myself as a person. Do i not have that maturity and ability to see that line that creates the dinstinction between work and friendship? It left me feeling disgusted with myself upon realising that i actually DESIRE to FEEL that gratification of having the person PAY for his/her freeloading ride. I absolutely ABHOR the peer evaluation consultation with Ms Chan.
If i had to do it all again.
I wouldn't take away the rain.
'Cause i know it made me who i am.
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [1:09 PM]
Monday, September 12, 2005
trying my best to think objectively
// kelis - trick me
Why do some people find revolting joy in pushing my buttons? It's almost as if their every happiness is drawn from my extreme annoyance. That is something i'll think more about soon. I'm still thoroughly analysing the Hutton Inquiry. Wish me all the best and the luck in the world for the commissues exam paper tomorrow.
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [11:23 AM]
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
those were the days of my usage of
a hybrid of english and gangster malay
// jennifer lopez feat. big pun - feelin' so good
In a vain attempt to keep certain idiots from reading my mortifying archives [i am the person i am today because of who i was in the past. Yes, i am assuaging myself], i shall post yet another entry to keep you reading-hungry thugs temporarily occupied.
The past 2 weeks of my life had been nothing less of depressing hell. Been breathing, eating, slurping, fingering, basically living school projects. You cannot deny the fact that you're life is quite sad when you stay in school till about 12 in the morning and have the school lights switch off on you 3 times. Not once, not twice, but thrice. Triple the size of the invisible capital L for Loser plastered on my forehead.
But rejoice, for school project insanity has subsided.
Exams, here i come to fuck you.
I'm feelin' so good
I knew that i would
Been taking care of myself like i should
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [9:21 AM]