Saturday, February 28, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <9>
Hey dude...(smiley face..sighhh..hehe)...finally got my resultz...n i'm sorry 2 say dat i did not qualify for JC, but i am able 2 make it 2 a poly...haha...sighh...de anxiety n anticipation dat waz growing while waiting 4 my resultz waz reeealy damn terok...very de rabak...my heart waz beating damn fast in de buz on de way 2 masjid naval base 4 friday prayerz...n Adnan kept on talking abt it n i kuden take it so i asked him 2 juz shut up...hahahaha...n de silence actually made it worse...aniwayz of all de thingz 2 b jumping in2 my mind in dat moment in time waz an episode of de bachelor...haha...i think it waz bkoz i waz watching "4 Love or Money' de previous nite..WELL ANIWAYZ...aku memang mat tebiat so dat explainz dat...aniwayz , when i reached school i tot i waz gonna drop dead of an anxiety attack right der n den...2 make it worse de ppl who got de resultz b4 me were happily crying...especially my frenz...i felt very sad...noooo...not a bad sad...but it waz more of a joyful kind of sad...coz i saw my frenz...dey MADE IT...dey made real good gradez...haha...sorry man...diz iz such a jiwang moment 4 me...it waz more jiwang when i saw Stacy, Wendy and Becky wit a smile of pure genuine happinezz on their facez...if u're reading diz Stacy...i'm proud of u gerl...all doz time we spent @ de library...hehe...u don't have 2 jump down de OUB building @ 2.30 in de freaking morning now!!! n Becky...ohh...Becky Becky Becky...hehehe...i knew u were one heck of a smart gerl...u done real well gerl...tanx 4 comforting me while i waz waiting 4 my turn 2 get my resultz...N WENDYYY...U DE BOMB GERLLL...haha...I KUD NEVER B MORE PROUD OF U...n 2 tell u de truth...i really wanted 2 hug u when u told me...but i guy mah...so got some proud ego rite?...but i'm glad u were de one who hug me in de end without giving me any warning!!!...hahaha...haiz...sniffsniff...n der i waz...stillll blooody waiting 4 my turn...N DO U KNOW WAT HAPPENED??????...Mrs Thong...de woman who i waz komplaining abt in my last entry came 2 me 2 congratulate me!!! n i waz like...huh?...watever 4???...she said..."U havent gotten ur results ah?...if i remember correctly u got a distinction 4 ur EL!"...den i waz like cartoon, jumping like an idiot...i said "U sure or not???.U don't make me happy 4 nothing u know...u don't raise my hopez up 4 nothing"...den she said "Y?...no confidence in urself ah?"..."NO LAHHHH (power eh..depan head of EL aku cakap LAH...n she juz congratulated me 4 a distinction in EL...haha)...juz a lil scared...datz all"...pazz 2 dier jual aku RS fiesta-nyer ticket,(-.-")...hahaha...n time passed by (it seemed like forever,serious man)...n it waz MY turnnn (jeng jeng jeng)...
4 a moment der i wanted 2 halau de juniorz who were crowding behind us...kpo sak dorang...dey have no bitching rite 2 stand der n look @ ppl'z resultz...takper2...enjoy de moment...i hope dat when u get ur resultz in de future u'll have a fantastic crowd surrounding u...isn't dat a lovely thought...sheesh...so aniwayz...i waz sitting der...looking at my covered result slip...(100 other eyeballz were looking down at it 2...sheesh)...n si Mrs Chua 2...instead of telling me my resultz straight away she wanted 2 sell me ticketz 4 crying out loud!!!...n i waz like...I BOUGHT ALREADYYYY...den entah aper lagi entah...datu aku strezz aku cakap...MRS CHUA...CAN U PLEZEEE SHOW ME MY RESULTZ OR NOT...I'M DYING HERE U KNOWWW...datu dier gi ketawer n go sorry sorry...n FINALLY aku nampak result slip aku...okok...EL A1...fuh! (n all diz while i tot i flung it...MY GOD...haha)...(sabar eh...gi amek resultz slip)...kk back...i'll tell u my resultz...beginning wit de top gradez...EL A1 (muahahaha), Malay B3 (dah agaknyer), Combined Sciences B3 (if only Chee waz der 2 say well done...haiz), E-mathz B4, Bio C5 (i improved alot rite Mrs Chua????...daripader asek flung rabak gilerr dulu), Combined Humanz C6 (ironikally i know it iz my social studiez dat pulled me down...n my geog saved my azz...ironikally i kicked some serious geography azz during de O's...hehe...when ironikally all diz while i waz a borderline case 4 Geog n did well 4 SS...sheesh...such irony)...den A-mathz tak yah cakap lah...tapi still better dari dulu...hehe...
So datz dat...my L1r5 (which doesnt exist,(-.-")) is 22...n my L1r4 (which doez exist,(:D)) is 15...haha...well...yeah, im proud of it...4 a moment der...when de anxiety n anticipation finally faded i kud only think abt not qualifying 4 a JC...it waz like a damn shit thru my heart...i kud only think of dat...n also i waz soooo scared dat my mother n especially my frenz will b soo disappointed wit me...dealing wit my own disappoinment waz one thing, having 2 handle other ppl'z disappoinment in me iz a totally different thing...but hey...u guyz were de best...my mother text me saying "Watever u get it iz not de end of de world, (U c, I wasen't actually optimistik when i told her abt my viewz n guessez on my resultz de last time) n dat she will still love me"...haha...in dat particular moment in time...even if u said i smelled good i wud've love u forever...wat more diz...haha...den wendy's reaktion waz a lil diff i must say...haha...she opened her mouth n den 4 abt 1.5s she waz quiet wit her mouth open...den i think she punched me in de arm n said congratz...haha...den many ppl were saying congratz n itz ok n i'm like...yeah tanx...but tankz u guyz...seriously...hahaha...
It turnz out dat all of my frenz did good...haha...vineet 2 (he did bloody fucking well...I MEAN REALLYY DAMN BLOODY FREAKING WELL)...if ur reading diz (which wud b a miracle if u did...haha)...i juz wanted 2 say bt de other day... dat itz cool alrite... n i'm sorry 4 cursing u so much aniwayz...haha...we're even now...datz rite abt square...n Saidah...hahahaha...she did reeeall well 4 her malay...B3 alrite perr!!!!...n i wanted dat hug 2...sigh..it felt good...tankz 4 being der 4 me dudette...
Well...many stuff happened after dat...but datz enuff reminiscin 4 now...n mind u i GOT LOADZZZZ of thingz 2 juz talk abt...haha...
In de mean time, while waiting 4 my next entry, check out my craft HERE aite, itz of A1 standard...haha...kk...i'll shut up...
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [11:05 AM]
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <8>
Hey bloggie...sorry bt yezterday...dat entry iz an indikation dat i'm a strezzed out boy rite now...haha...2 more dayz n im gonna get my o level resultz!!! itz not de result itself dat iz really freaking me out, itz more of de decision i have 2 make AFTER getting de resultz...well 1st of all...one of my biggest fearz n concernz iz my EL...i think i screwed up reeeeall bad 4 my compo n my summary...4 my compo, i wrote abt "sex", well not exactly sex, it waz more of a student who fallz in love wit a teacher n dey did it...i donno wat made me write abt dat but i juz figered out a great opening paragraph 4 it...but eventually, due 2 de lack of time n also mayb due 2 de fact dat i waz lacking sleep, i kuden really think straight n my ending waz TOTAL BULLSHIT...n furthermore i included de sex part..n mr guru made it bloody clear de cambridge examinerz tak suker diz kind of crap..but i fergot...besar kepaler sikit...tot i waz good, now im regretting it...but si Thong 2 pun satu ah...dier 2 tak tau ajar el jgn ajar...de whole entire freaking year we only really made one or mayb a couple more compos..n SATU ponnn dier tak return balek...datu dah tuliz penat2 tak mark tak aper..kater banayk sangat kerje kene buat..kene mark sec 5 lah sec 3 lah...KALAU TAKLEH MANAGE KATER JER LAH TAK LEH MANAGE...nanti aku yng amek o levelz BUKAN KAU...balek2 compre samer summary...bullshit sak...akunye writing skillz pun bloody rusty...datu band 2 n 3 every week tuliz satu kompo...band 1 nyer budak mentang2 band 1 Thong ingat kiterang banyak bagoz...per sajer ah...datu compre..de text waz bloody easy..answe rsoalan pun senang, tapi biler nak buat summary hancor berkecai...de text waz bloody easy, but i waz attempting 2 replace every sentence wit my own wordz...n in de end tak cukop werdz sak..n bloody de banyak tak cukop werdz..datu " u all have one minute left"...so aku cepat2 ah added in whole sentences here n der...rabak dok...skrng aku ingat aku tak fail english dah cukop...
rite now im strezzed out coz I STILL HAVE NOT MADE UP MY MIND abt weder i wanna go 2 a poly or jc..i waz thinking dat if i am not very sure abt wat i want 2 do wit my future...i shud juz go 2 a jc...but im scared coz wat if i KANT make it 2 jc???... den how??..kalau dpt max 23 pointz can somehow squueze in2 a jc...datz wat my frenz say aniwayz...kalau tidak..last resort go 2 a poly...but WAT COURSE SHUD I TAKE???...u read my previous entry Bloggie...u know wat r my dreamz n aspirationz..im not sure i even want 2 b a lawyer now...n i dont take any of de courses will help me realise my dreamz...UNLEZZ I KEEP ON SEARCHING N FIND A BLOODY COURSE DAT WILL....
he flared his nostrils rapidly [7:50 PM]
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <7>
1) I'm getting sick and tired of selling myself short every single time over n over again
2) JC or Poly? initially i automatically chose poly az an escape route...a last resort if i kant go 2 a JC (it all really depends on my el...oh God, at least give me a D7 if not an A1,A2,B3 or B4)...n rite now dat mentality iz really making me feel sick 2 de core of myself...how kan i even b thinking abt my whole entire freaking future like dat??? kannot go jc?...go poly ah!...dat mentality haz got 2 go...
3)So...wat will it b den?...jc?..or poly?...well..letz juz relax, kalm down..n think abt wat my feelingz are..wat r my dreamz n aspirationz?...2 b honest...i want 2 b a singer..may an rnb vocalist like craig david or usher, or a rapper, or b in a hip-hop outfit like de fugees, wher i get 2 sing n rap...or one of doz folk-rock artists playing deir acoustic guitars like edwin mcCain,john mayer,michelle branch..or a fusion of dat n rnb like Javier! or may juz b in a rock band n b de lead vocalists..learn how 2 play de guitar n also b de lead guitarists..watever it iz i want 2 sing..or have a rap-metal concept n i kn refine my rhyming skills n rap n even rap n sing at de same time?...n at de side, apart frm having a music career, i want 2 b a writer...an essayist?...juz write novels..novelists! write n publish novels n also a collection of my poem collections!...yez!! datz wat i want 2 becam!! i can also infuse my poetry writing into song writing/rhyming watever ya know??..in dat way i kan enjoy both worlds at de same time!!!....
he flared his nostrils rapidly [7:30 PM]
Monday, February 23, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <6>
Mornin' Bloggie!...hehehe...i mean...good afternoon!!...2day i waz supposed 2 wake up @ 6.30am, sembayang Subuh, datu pukol 7 jalan kaki gi rumah nyai coz i want 2 jog pat sane...Her area iz damn cool coz itz rite next 2 de sea...ya know...damn near de division between S'pore n Johor...so jogging der wud've been cool coz de wind will b blowing in my face n de air is fresh...furthermore on weekdayz gerenti takder orang...mayb a number of workerz n entah saper lagi ah...but de point iz i kan't run when derz alot of ppl...i'll feel 2 self-conscious ah...but wat de heck...i set de hp alarm @ 6.30am...hp gi memekak @ 5.06am...so i went back 2 sleep n woke up @ 11.30am...hahaha...wat de heck...
2day my legz r surprisingly not sore or crammed after my "hardcore" swimming yezterday nite...haha...went swimming wit my papa (trepanjat pulak dier nak pegi...usually dier malaz...i think itz bcoz he n mama r not really talking so dier pegi samer aku...sheesh). Initially i wanted 2 go wit my animaniac kazenz, tapi dorang aderrrr je alasan...gi kendurilah, sakitlah...haha...so it waz juz me n papa...n ya know wat!!! 4 a boy who doesn't really know how 2 swim...i swam damn hard sak!!!...hahaha...de only swimming technik dat i've really mastered iz freestyle, so i waz basikally freestyling back n forth n it waz ONE HELL OF A WORKOUT...but datz alrite...i needed de werkout...perot dah tekluar sikit ah...haha...when i had my swimming trunk on n i waz looking in de mirror...badan aku tak proportionate sak...perot dah lah tekluar sikit, datu pantat keciklak...so off 2 swimming i go!!! i had 2 "proportionalize my body"...haha...n though my butt diden get any bigger after de swim, at least perot aku dah masok sikit...haha...but de thing iz, i also needed 2 juz de-strezz myself ah, i waz so damn pist at my mama...apart from all de shit datz been running thru my mind, dier lak buat prangai...but 2day i'm alrite...yezterday kalau aku tak gi swimming...i wud've been blogging wit alot of "fucks" n "bitch" flying out of my mouth n onto de keyboard...but swimming iz de healthier alternative! hahaha...once i waz in de water...it juz washed away all of de shit n anger dat waz raging in my heart n my mind...
Juz now, I waz juz reading other ppl'z blogz, n i'm feelin a lil sad coz many of my homiez were feelin down...saidah, watsup wit u gerl???...i feel a lil guitly coz i haven't really been taking concern in my fren'z welfare...been 2 damn busy wit my own damn problemz i gezz...i have a feelin dat im de reason, or mayb one of de reasonz 4 saidah's breakdown...sigh...i'll juz ask her de next time i c her...n Sara 2...watsup Mama Barney??? y r u feeling defeated???...everyone iz fighting their own inner demonz i gezz...sighhh...well, i'll try 2 b der 4 em if i kan i gezz...
Oh yeah!!! Liyana haz changed her blogskin 2...it lookz damn fly now...derz a picture of Beyonce, my scandal...I WISH!!!...hahaha...n by de wayz, i waz also looking at Muser'z picturez, n i suddenly saw de neoprint dat he, wendy n me took!!!! i waz like WAT DE HELL R U DOING PUTTING DOZ FREAK PICTUREZ ON DIZPAY 4 EVERYONE 2 C U FUC#$%@ idiot!!!!...i waz wearing my uniform n had a crown on my head 4 crying out loud!!! i diden xzakly look fly...BITCH MAN!!!!!!...damn!...malu giler sak...tak tau maner nak letak muker skrng...Muser Muser...pantat betol...u my fren n all...but,do me a favour N GET RID of doz picz man!...entah da braper zaman sak gambar 2 semuer on dizplay 4 everyone'z mockery...WTF...Well, i gtg eat luch now...can ferget bt eating weetbix...n im tired of asking ppl 2 go check out my craft...but i will aniwayz...
Do check out my bloody craft HERE aite???
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [12:00 PM]
Sunday, February 22, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <5>
Hey Bloggie...watsup dude?....sighhh...im feeling alrite i gezz, relatively speaking...yezterday waz rather...full of UNXPECTED SURPRISEZ...hahaha (im luffing but i dont seem 2 think itz funny at all...well actually,kam 2 think of it,diz WHOLEE komplikation doez have a certain comical value...haha...kk...dat justifiez my haha-ing)...well...i cant really talk abt it...mainly bkoz i dont want 2 hurt anybody'z feelingz...but den wat de fuck iz having a blog 4 aniwayz if u kant even open up rite Bloggie?...mayb i shud go private...change my url...hmmm...i'll konsider dat...sigh...2 b honest...I DONNO WAT 2 FEEL ANIMORE...my heart really tak tau aperr nak rase...rabak dok!!! when ur heart doesnt know wat 2 feel...rabak giler...haha (againnn im luffing...wat de hell)...welll...letz not think abt diz 4awhile k??...juz...ferget abt it...juz 4 now...
Yezterday, i slept at 5am...i told myself dat i waz gonna think thingz thru...but i only ended up dwelling in other totz...gitu ah prangai aku...when i have alll de time in de world...i'd rather spend it tinking abt God-knowz-wat den actually tinking of de shit datz been dwelling in my head...i waz also listening 2 Simple Plan's "I'm Just A Kid"...gerek dok lagu 2!...(Saidah'z banging her head 2 dat song 2!!! shez going punk...dah nak jadi minah punk keding dek eh???...hehehe)...itz my anthem...sometimez i wish i kud've listen 2 it in de past..at least i kud've luff all de shit away in my sekondary skool dayz..sigh..den coz i waz getting a lil' tired of punk rock at 1 am in de freaking morning...so i listened 2 Aaliyah'z "One In A Million" record...sighh...somehow hearing her sing "everything iz gonna b alrite..." made me feel reeealll calm...hahaha...n u know wat de hell happened yesterday???!!! i waz basikally juz hayal-ing at nite...n unconsciously looking at de window...den all of a sudden...i tot i saw a face coming in!!! i waz like WAT DE FUCCKKK!!!!...trepanjat sak!!! de face look kinda demonic at nite...den i realised it waz Lepak my cat...haha...dat idiot waz at de window...(probably peeping at minah kucing downstairz dat pervert...hahaha)...Cokelat oii Cokelat (i kall him Cokelat nowadayz...)...tak tau aper nak cakap..hehehehe...pantat betol...
Well...wat da ya know!! im gonna get my O level examination resultz diz friday!!!...yahooooo!!!...im like...SOOO XCITED!...yeah rite!!!...hahahaha...wat de fuck!!..seram dok!...Actually,i was freaking out until last nite...(c wat i mean?? when i shud b tinking bt "dat komplikation"...i waz tinking abt my my o level resultz). i basikally realized dat...watever resultz i do get...i will b soooo proud...dapat 30 points...pun happylah...coz i werked soo hard 4 it...n 4 a boy who had 2 go thru de shit i went thru (2 cut de long story of my "tormented" skooling dayz short...i basikally hanged out wit de wrong crowd...dey were a bunch of mentally abusive juvenile delinquentz...hahaha) n survive!!...IM PROUD OF MYSELF MAN!!...n yezterday i had deze reeealllly strange dreamz...n mind u...MY DREAMZ ARE SO DAMN FUCKING WEIRD I DONNO WAT DE HELL DEY'RE ABOUT...haha...i dreamt i waz gonna watch diz horror movie...n somehow...some interdimensional thing happen n i waz IN de horror movie...n i waz watching myself in de horror movie...KOMPLIKATED AH!!...hahaha...nvm...but one dream dat DID make sense waz...a dream abt me getting my o level resultz,(of all de thingz i kud dream abt!!!...it waz more like a nightmare!!!...hahaha)....seram sak!!!...i remember getting 30 points 4 english???...haha..n u're not even supposed 2 get points 4 each subject!!! juz grades...wat de hell...told u i had strange dreamz...i think itz all Lepak's fault...he gave me such a scare i dreamt of merepeknyer stuff...haha...pantat betol...
N OH YEAH!!!...i changed my blogskin Bloggie!!!! Hope u like ur new self...well..derz a damn hot japanese animation babe in red clothingz...enjoy...hahaha..n tanx 4 helping me out wit diz blogging shit Liyana!!! (she de bombb!!...muahahaha)...hehe...Well, datz all i have 2 say 4 now i gezz...N b4 i go...juz wanna tell u (whoeverz reading diz aniwayz)...
Do check out my craft HERE aite?
PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [12:17 PM]
Friday, February 20, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <4>
YO BLOGGIE!!!...wasup braddar???...man!! im kinda strezz out rite now! so i reeeally need 2 get some shit..kk loadz of shit out of my whole damn freaking system...wait...juz need 2 fucking skream 1st.....ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... diz iz bcoz tadi when i went online...many ppl were chattin wit me..n all of em had different issuez 2 talk abt..n i waz STRESSED!!..DAMN FUCKING SENSORY OVERLOAD SAK...i kuden breathe!!!...everyone waz talking bt diz n dat.... aarrghhhh!!!...n i had 2 respond 2 every single one of em in de blink of an eye...wah piang...WTF...den der waz diz gerl named ezlie who klaimed she waz an x-fuchunian like me..we chatted thru Nadia (takper nadia..she said i wasnt handsome, but my bro waz! n dat i waz juz cute n adorable...sniffsniff)..but i dont think i ever saw her in my whole entire freaking lifetime..n de same can be said abt me..she kuden rekall ever seeing my face 2..so wat de hell...watever ah...sigh....kk...well aniwayz..2 nite i wanna talk bt loaddddzzz of stuff...1stly...RAVE(de japanese anime...hahaha), 2ndly...Adek(my cat), 3rdly...Becky( my cho pal..mizz ya gerl!).
WOKAY...1stly...RAVE -Groove Adventure-..haha..im suddenly singing de cute japanese theme song in my head...i think Elie waz singin it.."Fly higher n higher 2wards de wat de hell...of crap bah blah blah fergot de bloody lyrikz"...haha, takper..besok tengok lagi (if itz shown on weekendz) n cuber hafal lyrikz...by the way..me passionately talking abt a Japanese anime will REALLY show off my maturity..haha...OK..wer 2 start..here it goez...well, ya know..smalam smalam nyer episode gerek dok!!! i waz so happy n proud of all my warriorz i juz wanted 2 tear of joy n proudness..u c..Elie..she didnt want 2 juz b diz helplezz,weak (n also gorgeous, tantalising, damn bloody adorably cute, mind-blowingly kind) gal who kuden protect n fight 4 herself...so she waz like...bang bang bang...started shooting her gun in de air...n skreamed..I WANT 2 FIGHT 2!!..I JUZ DONT WANT 2 B PROTECTED...n it waz like an emotional moment..n Haru waz like sayin all diz crap which waz sooo jiwang gilernyer moment ah...i waz sooo happy 4 Elie..haha..den she pointed her gun 2wardz diz vain woosey villain ah..he had de Dark Bring of Ice...den..Let..wah piang!! power sak!!! he transformed himself in2 diz humanoind dragon ah..he waz a half dragon..so he had 2 like carry out diz ritual ah...2 transform into a humanoid dragon 2 defeat diz assole..power sak...he did it 4 revenge coz matair dier kene bunoh..but eventually he figered out she wasnt murdered...but turned out dat hiz gf dah jadi pure dragon dat he will eventually have 2 fight wit in de end..all because of diz asshole from Demon Card who wanted de gf 4 himself...jahat dok dier..pembunoh...sialnyer jantan..kesian sak Let n hiz gf...den dey battled ah...it waz a mind-blowing battle but Let kalah...he turned in2 a tree...but in de end..waz saved by diz guy who 6 mthz ago (cartoon nyer time) tried 2 kill my beautiful Elie...okok...den 2 Musica lak..dier kene lawan wit diz stunning green-haired woman villain..now dorang duer ni silver claimers ah...but de woman ader advantage coz dier pon,juz like de rez of her Demon Card clan ader Dark Bring..during de battle..i got 2 know abt her life story,her hiztory...kesian gerl 2..dier tak jahat..cumer when she waz a young gerl..bapak dier waz ironikally wrongly akkused of stealing de silver klaim dat he built n bekam a national ikon..in de end he waz tortured 2 death..n de gerl had 2 survive on her own without a father whom she loved dearly..kesian ah..but when she waz all grown-up n still wanted vengeance 4 de murder of her father..Gail yng dah mampoz 2 kasi dier silver claim yng bentok cam ular..n she killed de king who killed her father...n den now de only thing she wantz iz de *wat-the-fuck-izit-called* silver claim yng bapak dier buat n waz akuse of stealing...itz a komplikated story ah...but she tinks Musica's guardian Lize, (u c, Musicanyer parents were killed n Lize adopted him) stole it..blah blah blah...in de end..Musica kalah stunning green-haired villain women menang...@ diz moment in time, it seemed dat all hopes were lost, de good guyz were losing one by one!..Haru pon kalah sak! alamak! Haru!! pe ni! kater nak protek Elie no matter wat..(n in de sky, de darknezz waz consuming de sun, which waz supposed 2 indikate evil wud overcome de light..wat de helll??...haha)..in de end..only Elie waz left...n bastard sak de woosie villain man! he waz toying wit Elie! he knew she kuden win against him..n semuer heroez dah knockout...n den Elie..haha..gi tendang bodek dier (datz my gal!)...den blasted hiz bloody face..ah kau! he snapped! he said..HOW DARE U DESTROY MY BEAUTIFUL FACE!..n i waz like wat de freak????...gi tengok cermin ah u faggot idiot (i have no dizkrimination watsoever 2wardz homoz but...he hurt a gerl, furthermore he hurt Elie!! u monster!!)..n den he threw Elie arnd, sepak Elie..kesian sak baby aku!!..did all diz wrestling movez on Elie..shez a gerl lah..cmon man! den Plue n diz penguin kreature lookalike threw stonez at de idiot..n aperlagi..dorang pon kene campak..haha..sekali...Griff..de coward, strange-looking blue kreature who ran away n abandoned hiz frenz..alamak..tengah lari,tapi kene tangkap!!! den de evil guy turned Elie into diz ice block n threw it 2wardz Griff...Griff kuden evade it! so u know wat Elie my darlin' did??! she sacrificed her arm 2 save him!she punched her arm into de ground juz infront of Griff..n her arm broke..den she said.."Run Griff.."...n Griff emosi giler ah. den de guy said.."U stupid woman,sacrificing ur arm 4 an ugly pet like diz..so unbeautiful"...den he waz gonna behead Elie wit hiz sword..den Elie said..."NO! Griff's my fren!!"...n den Griff tak leh tahan! he said.."Sometimes i peep in2 de bathroom! I peeped when Elie is changing! but Elie still kalls me her fren! Elie still kalls me her fren even when i ran!"...den...juz b4 Elie nyer kepaler kene cut off..Griff jumped n tolak Elie n in de end.. he kener belah into 2...woah...he sacrificed himself in de name of frenship...den Elie...oh my God...sedih giler...n den..due 2 dat emotional xtreme...ETHELION DAT WAZ WITIHIN ELIE WAZ UNLEASHED!!! it waz like ARMAGEDDON!!!...n blah blah blah..panjang ah story..tapi rite now itz a good ending ah...tapi derz still alot of shit 2 talk abt...but i'll stop here for now..where Rave iz concerned aniwayz...i cant believe i typed diz long abt a japanese anime man!...hahahahaha!!
Well...enuff abt animationz n fantastikal fantasiez abt another world n hot japanese kartoon gerlz n start living in de real werld...adek iz reaaaallly sick..hez kidneys are infected. *sighhhh*..kesian sak..i knew diz waz gonna happen coz if he kant urine de toxinz r gonna damage hiz bodily tissuez!...de dokter said he vomitted..which waz an indikation of some form of kidney failure..but itz "alrite" coz hiz kidneyz kan b fully recovered..which 4 me waz like a big sigh of relieve..PHEW...tapi tadi biler gi tengok Adek wit mama..kesian sak..he had de tube inserted into hiz bebird which went all de way into his urinary bladder..supposed 2 help flush out all de toxinz i gezz..but in diz partikular moment in time..itz juz a waiting game..datz wat de dokter sayz...n i tink Adek waz trying 2 mengadu pat kiterang..like.."help..im in pain..bring me home...i mizz abang.."..n i waz reall sad..n mama waz gonna burst anitime, idong dier merah giler...but...all we kan do now iz pray 2 de Almighty 4 de best..i believe Adek kan make it...i cant bare 2 loose him..it'll b 2 painful..4 de entire family..well..mayb xcept my papa..sheesh..watever...n also...i learnt dat Adek iz of Siamese hybrid, which iz y he meowz funny..haha..like he OWs instead of meowz...like de sound a mat kental makes when biler kene cubit..well kinda..haha..aniwayz..i never knew Adek waz so...exotic..haha...n he also made frenz wit an abandoned bunny at de klinik 2!! hahahaha...cute sak...n de dokter said dat hez reall cute frenly n talkative..haha..he letz dem do aniting 2 em..when in actual fact, an "average cat" are very sensitive n defensive when dey're in such a kritikal kondition...sigh....ur a fighter Adek...hold on
Sighhh....i really kinda mizz Becky..haha..she waz online juz now..n i told her everything abt my encounter wit Caroline...diz iz usually de kinda thingz we'd talk abt..haha...u c me n Becky were klose ever since we were in sec 2..i kalled her "Itchy B&W"...which meant Bitchy n Witchy, but she never figered it out..haha...lame, i know..but i waz in sec 2..so cut me some slack wud u?..haha...we were alllllllwayzz @ each other'z throat..cursing each other..but actually we both love each other ah..z frenz bloggie u freaking idiot...den in sec 4..we sat 2gether during geog..coz she had no one in geog klazz..she waz ALL ALONE...haha...Geog waz partikularly fun 4 me coz of her..we talked n cursed n joke alot...many of de boyz were jealouz of uz in klazz i think...n de teacherz were often picking on uz...haha...we also had our very own game..i kalled it de "Who Iz Pretty?" game..n well..de title iz pretty self-xplanatory..'ll b like..diz gerl iz pretty!..n she'll either say..yeah! damn hot man!..or..u blind ah??!!...n we'd talk bt music..shez in2 all diz indie rock bandz i gezz..all doz funny rock bands wit funny namez dat u've never heard b4 in ur entire freaking lifetime...n i'm in2 dat whole hip-hop, rnb music...haha...well...doz were de dayz...dey were fun n care-free(okayyy...not sooo care-free..hahaha)...well...Becky haz a "hot, 20-yr-old" bf now n skooling in a college in KL..so i told her..."Sigh...i tot i waz de only guy in ur life...haha"...n she said.."Ofcoz!"..hahaha..dat made me realll happy...sighh...i mizz de old timez...i wish i kud turn back de handz of time....sighh...
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PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [9:55 PM]
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <3>
Hey ya Bloggie...2 tell u de truth..im kinda pist, at my father whom i kall papa...i HATE de way hez kontrolling my mama lah..cam siak jer..1st of all..he'z an irresponsible husband AND father...i mean...all my life..sometines i juz wish i kud have a father who waz REALLY der 4 me...u know, like in tv?...where u c a father n his son having a great happy father-and-son relationship..ya know?..like going 2 de ball game...n we'll b like having a great time 2gether.he can also teach me athing or 2 abt being a MAN..haha...well aniwayz..i can 4get abt dat...datz not my reality..i shudnt b komplaining, some ppl dont even have a father, or doez have one but abuses dem..hmm...i shud konsider myself lucky i gezz..lucky lucky me!...haha..well aniwayz...due 2 de fact dat i really have nothing much 2 say..actually i do ah bloggie...tapi malaz nak cakap banyak...i diden even kam online 2 komplain abt papa...actually yes lah..but not abt our relationship but hiz n mama'z..haha...i'll mayb kam online later...lepas tengok American Idol...I WISH CAMILE VALESCO will make it!! suarer dier power dok!!!cam...sexy, seducing...dark...ah kau!!..suarer gitu gerenti menangnyerr!!! ..n shez hawaian..hahaha...dat makez her all de more exotic n sexy..haha..kk...bye!!
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PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [9:03 PM]
ReMiNiScEnCe <2>
Hey Ya...wow..my 2nd journal entry huh?...i'm actually starting 2 like diz shit..haha...who wud've known?...well aniwayz...i have another blog now (i'm lovin' it enuff 2 have TWO blogz now 4 cryin' out loud!!!..haha). Diz one functionz z a journal...where i RELEASE myself n juz externalize my thoughts, perzpectivez, feelingz,wadever...n z u kan c, i changed de skin!!!..itz cute ah i gezz..Bart Simpson..he rawks..haha..n toking bt de Simpsons..Mimi (shez de bomb man!) told me dat in de northern n southern hemisphere..when u flush ur toilet bowl de water goes in de clockwize or anticlockwise direction..i cant remember which is which..but de point i'm tryin 2 make iz..I NEVER KNEW U KUD LEARN SO MUCH FRM WATCHING "THE SIMPSONS"...haha...tanx 4 dat err...intresting info dek!..i'll make sure i'll take a note of de direction of de water when i flush de toilet nxt time!... haha...n juz so u know...i'm typing reeeaal damn slow..coz my mama haz diz superhuman ability 2 hear noisez as soft as de typin of de keyboard...even wen shez in Dreamland...FREAKY...haha..she told me earlier in de day dat if de elektricity bill 4 diz month is high..shez gonna sell me!!! VIOLENT!!...n i tot her love 4 me was unkonditional...haha..kalau dier bacer ni dier cakap aku korang ajar ni skrng!!!haha...well aniwayz...Adek iz still in de klinik..besok baru boleh bawak balek..de dokter said she had 2 observe him somemore coz de tube is still inserted dlm bebird (de benefitz of talking 2 Muser iz dat u learn kreatif wayz 2 replace "censored" wordz wit other alternatives..haha) dier..,*sigh*..keciannn Adek...n 2day dizkussion abt sunat-ing Adek timbol balek...abang said kalau sunat pon takder make difference, but wat de hell..i dizagree man! W.T.H...malaz nak bebual pasal ni...n Tanx 4 taking concern in Adek'z well-being Ida!!!...haha...she also told me dat Speech Day will b her last dance performance..n shez feelin a lil' (okayy..alottt) sad abt it...de only thing i kud tell her waz 2 dance like she nvr dance b4 on dat day!!haha..kalau nak lompat, lompatlah sampai stage roboh..haha..n 4 dat precious advice dier panggil aku giler..haha...BY DE WAY!! Ida told me Perfect 10 iz interviwing Caroline 2morow at 10pm!!! YAHOOOOO!!! tanx 4 telling me dudette!!u de bomb!!! i'll sms caroline 2morow durin de interview n ask her weder she rememberz diz (ahem ahem) cute, good-looking, charming..(hehehehehe) boy who asked 4 her autograph during NAP openhouse!! (had 2run akrozz de street 2 get her freaking autograph!! naseb baik takder car accident!!)..N i'll finally get 2 TELL HER MY NAME!! MY NAME IS ARMAN CAROLINE OH BAYBEEE!! MY NAME IS ARMAN!!..hahaha..n i'll ask her WHY DIDEN U WAIT 4 MY ARRIVAL AT NYP openhouse de other day??!! huh?? huh??...n Caroline wud b like...WHO DE FUCK IZ DIZ GUY??...UR FREAKING ME OUT DUDE!!!...haha...*sighhhh*..cant wait 4 2morow!! xciting gilerrr...muahahaha...POP...my fantasy bubble meletop...totz abt Caroline swepttt awayyy bt de question dat haz been haunting me nite n day nowadayz....JC OR POLY???!!!!...sighh...but datz enuff reminiscing 4 2day i gezz...n Wendy..i hope u'll forgive me..i know i havent been reading ur blog in de past coz i tot bloggin was pure crap.but now...u "shone a light upon me"...haha (i know..lame joke..u'd probably b makin diz face -.-'' rite abt now...i'll try 2 read ur blog z ofter z i possibly kan k?....WELL! z i said..datz enuff reminiscing 4 2day....i'm gonna pray den off 2 bed i go...bye2 mr bloggie...i think i'll name mr bloggie... bloggie!.. yeah... yawnss..dat soudz good...
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PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [12:16 AM]
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
ReMiNiScEnCe <1>
Hey ya...can u actually believe it?..im actually having my 1st ever entry in diz blog!...n nope.itz not a poem..haha..takder inspiration ah.Well,2 b totally honest,im writing in my 1st ever entry coz im 2222 stressed out abt diz whole blogging shit..dammit shit!..none of de blogskins are juz rite enuff!so wat de hell..might z well stik wit de original one..itz slick enuff i gezz.Sooo...wer shud i start..2day hadent really been an eventful day 4 me..actually...in some sense it was.Letz see,@ abt 2.30 pm..went 2 cwp wit my mama..2 kollect a FREE SIEMENS A52 HP..haha...aniwayz..i hate taking de buz arnd diz hr..banyak mat taik (datz wat my bro call em..haha) in de buz..a grp of sekondary skool boyz were juz..full of shit?wat de hell..who gives a damn.den z mentioned,went 2 cwp 2 kollect de hp. In de end, i told my mama 2 giv de hp 2 my papa..coz i diden wan it..i juz wasent...feeling de hp i gezz..i'd rather stick wit my nokia 3310. N hey!it mayb old-skool but who gives a damn?..not me aniwayz..dat hp n me..we go a long long way..haha...after dat, i kuden believe it!...dari kedai hp troz mama aku gi tmpt pedikure sak!..n i was like WAT DE HELL? aint no way im going in der!..but terpakser...so i did..4 abt 45 damn freaking minutes!!!..but LUCKILYY..de gerls who were werking der jambuu gilerrr..hahaha...especially one gal..cantik sak! cam..cam...cantik ah!..haha..at least dey provided me wit some eye candy..hehehe...N also, while waiting 4 my mama 2 finish,i decided 2 find out who diz anonymous gerl who text me a happy valentines day msg..she said she was caroline of light years...haha..i diden know caroline boleh berbahase melayu. she turned out 2 b Dee,diz gerl,kawan Zilah who i spent alittle pt of V-day with..haha..i wonder if she likes me?....haha..ss sak aku...wat de heck?After dat,we went 2 cold storage 2 buy some vecthtablez coz my mama waz planning 2 make a salad 4 dinner 2nite.after watching Opera 2day, she was inspiried 2 GO HEALTHY..haha..datz great..PROUD OF U MAMA! well...after dat..we went home...(fast-4ward)...de next thing u know,we were on our way 2 de vet at ang mo kio coz my cat Adek waz sick..kesian sak..dier tak leh kencing..lagi.Initially mama tanak antar dier gi c a dokter,but i told her if he kant urine,he MAY DIE coz of all doz toxins in his body! (eyyy wahhh...putting my bio knowledge 2 good use)..n at de mention of de werd MATI..mama dah panik n startz tearing n off we were..in de taxi 2 de vet...(fast-4ward)de dokter said dat ani sudden change in de diet..(blah blah blah..xplanation involves change in ph n stuff) can cause rocks 2 b formed in de bladder..sigh...adek adek..kesian sak..datu dokter tanyer nak sunatkan adek tak?coz if dah sunat.probability of diz kondition kaming back is reduced..n my mama said ok..but i said NOOO..i learnt my lesson with lepak..tak sampai hati nak let dem take away pt of his body away frm him...i kuden let dem do it 2 adek..imagine if de dokter asked?..can i removed ur fucking balls???..ofcoz not man! but no, i dont hate de doktor..shez realll nice..but tak sampai hatilah..i want adek 2 have his own next generation..n mayb anak adek can be given 2 my n abang's children..wahhh...i sound so...oh God..i'm freaking myself out!a generation of cats?..but i really want dat....sighh...adek dah pat hospital dah skrng...one day jer...TAKE KARE PAT HOSPITAL EH SAYANG!..BESOK ABANG SAMER MAMA BAWAK BALEK RUMAH K??....(im sounding juz like my mother..but hey..i DONT GIVE A DAMN)...SOOO ANIWAYZ..datz how my day went! haha..juz now saidah waz online..n her presence online suddenly made me think abt my "love life crisis"..n de gerl who kallz me cookie monster,n "other ppl"..but hey...datz enuff reminiscing 4 2day....
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PEACE
he flared his nostrils rapidly [10:09 PM]